Miseries of Life - Assessment of Self (3)

1. Afterwards, when the man was abroad, he started working there and he suffered from many difficulties.
2. Like this, the mundane life is full of difficulties. He worked very hard and after a few years he was able to save some money.
3. Then came time for him to go back to his own people. When he arrived he saw that there was a famine in his country, and that the people were undergoing great hardship.
4. Some had hollow cheeks, some had lost the power of their eyes, and some were shaking with tremors. Everyone was miserable.
5. Some people were just sitting around pitiably, some had swollen limbs, and some were dead. Suddenly, he saw with his own eyes that his daughters and sons were also suffering like this.
6. Upon seeing this, he became full of grief, and began crying aloud miserably.
7. When his family became aware of him, they said, "Father! Father! Give us food," and they mobbed him for food, and clung to him.
8. Opening the packets he carried, they searched for food. Whatever came into their hands they ate immediately. Some died with food in their mouths, and some with food their hands.
9. He began to feed them in a great hurry, but some died while eating, and some were so hungry that they died of overeating.
10. Like this, most of his family died. Only one or two children survived, but they were miserable because of the loss of their mother.
11. It was like this that his household was destroyed by the famine. Afterwards, there were conditions of plenty in the country for everyone.
12. The man was not able to raise his children well. He had to make them their meals with his own hands. Having to do the cooking created a lot of trouble in his mind.
13. People encouraged him, so he got married another time, and all the money that he had was spent for the wedding.
14. Once again, he went to a foreign land to earn some money. When he came back home a quarrel started between the stepchildren.
15. The new wife that he took was a very young woman. The sons would not accept her as their mother, and the man had also lost his youth and vitality.
16. His sons were always fighting amongst themselves, and nobody listened to anybody else. He came to love his wife very much and she became his only precious loved one.
17. There was distrust in the minds of all the siblings and they could not agree on anything, so he called his five children to gather together.
18. He divided everything into five parts for all to share. However, his sons did not agree on this decision, and in the end, a quarrel ensued.
19. The father and his sons began to quarrel, and the sons beat their father. At that time the mother began shouting loudly.
20. Upon hearing the shouts, people gathered and watched what was going on. They all said that these sons were of no use for the father.
21. They were the reason that all of the vows had been taken and for whom all the troubles had been endured, and now his sons were being seen beating the father.
22. Such was the terrible quarrel that took everybody by surprise. The people of the town that were standing around them tried to settle the dispute.
23. The five people standing in front settled the dispute between the father and sons by dividing everything into five parts equally.
24. The father was kept separated in a small hut that was built for him, and his mind became thoroughly attached to his wife with selfish motives.
25. The wife was young and the man was old, but they came together and gave up their sorrow and began to consider that their life was a joy.
26. He had found a beautiful woman who was talented and clever. He said, "My luck is great in old age."
27. In this way, he regarded his life joyful, and he forgot all of his previous sorrows. Then, disaster occurred when an enemy invaded the country.
28. The attack came suddenly. They kidnapped his wife, and all of the people's belongings were taken away.
29. Once again, he suffered much grief. He cried loudly and in his mind he remembered his beautiful wife and all of her good qualities.
30. Then some news of his wife arrived. Upon hearing the news that his wife had been raped, he threw his body down on the ground.
31. He rolled around right and left with tears running down from his eyes. Upon remembering her, his thoughts burned with the fire of sadness.
32. He thought, "The money earned was spent for marriage, and now my wife has been taken away by villains.
33. Old age has come to me, and my children have kept me separated. Alas, Oh God, why has such misfortune come upon me?
34. I have no money, no wife, no home, and no strength. Oh God, for me, there is nobody except you."
35. Previously he did not worship God. He had become intoxicated upon seeing wealth, but in the end he repented in his old age.
36. His body had become very weak, and his skin dried up. The gases and bile had increased abnormally, and his throat was choked up with phlegm.
37. His tongue hung drooping in his mouth and he lost the power of speech. Phlegm filled his throat and made a peculiar sound. A foul odor was coming from his mouth, and his nose was running with mucus.
38. His neck moved and trembled, and tears flowed from his eyes. The horrible condition of old age had become his lot in life.
39. His dentures had become broken and his mouth became hollow. Saliva was dripping down from his mouth with a bad smell.
40. His eyes could not see, his ears could not hear a word, and he could not speak with a loud voice because breathlessness had set in.
41. The strength of his feet was gone, he could not sit properly without his body falling over, and the wind passing out through his anus was making loud sounds.
42. He could not control his feelings of hunger, and could not get food quickly enough. And even if he did get it, he could not chew properly with his teeth gone.
43. Due to excess bile he could not digest his food, and he was vomiting out what he ate or quickly passing it out through the anus as diarrhea.
44. The area around him was getting so spoiled with feces, urine, and vomit that the people passing by could not breathe.
45. Suffering from many sorrows and ailments, and the unsteady intellect of old age, his life was still not over.
46. The hair from his eye lashes and eyebrows greyed and then fell off completely, and his flesh was hanging like rags all over his body.
47. His bodily functions all became dependent on the few friends that remained. All of the people asked why he was not dying.
48. Those to whom he had given birth and raised turned their back on him. Difficult times had come upon him in the end.
49. His youth and energy was gone, his desire for family life was gone, and everything was in ruins including his body and wealth.
50. His whole life he had been selfish, and everything had gone to waste. How very difficult his condition had become at the end of his life.
51. He had labored for happiness, yet had ultimately ended up sad and unhappy. Now, still ahead was coming the danger of the pains of death.
52. Birth is the root of sorrow and gives misery like the stings of the scorpion. Therefore, without losing a moment, look after after your own self-interest.
53. Now, let this talk be. Old age is terrible for everyone. Therefore, surrender to God.
54. That same repentance which happens in the womb should also happen in old age at the end of life.
55. Afterwards, he again takes the birth after a stay in the mother’s womb, and the miserable mundane life, which is difficult to cross, once again becomes his destiny.
56. Without worshipping and praising God one cannot escape birth in this world. Next, I shall tell of the suffering coming from the three types of tortures.